10/28/21 a dreary Thursday, looking for balance

Being a human being feels like a lot at times. We must take care of ourselves on so many levels. Levels that I am just now discovering as I learn more about who I am. This week I felt off. It took me until today to realize this feeling was because I’m lacking on my me time. The time I spend alone allows me to recharge, to reconnect with me. I am getting familiar with what its like to live comfortably in my solitude, without anticipation. The feeling of being interrupted has always created a sprout of disturbance within me. I realize now that this is because I have not yet grown use to having a safe and peaceful place to just be me. I have had this change in my life, only two years since the time in my journey where I was genuinely lacking in a safe space to just be. I love the space that I have now, I’ve tried to get here and am steadily taking my time to experience and just be with myself.

When I am alone I am able to connect with myself in ways that I am not yet able to when I am around other people. As an empath it usually takes up until I am feeling the unbalance that comes with being a human sponge for all things emotion and energy. My mind feels so expansive, my body feels light today, my spirit feels heard because I am expressing. When I suppress the way I feel the alignment amongst my Mind, Body, & Spirit is compromised. It usually starts in the mind, a preoccupying thought or feeling that I choose to ignore yet think of constantly. Then it affects my body and I push back eating or forget to all together because I am Thinking so much, the mind begins to surpass the body. At this point my spirit is very much alerting me to the disease that my mind and body have now welcomed, this is when I start to grow quiet and turn within. I’ve found that when you speak to your heart and just listen, truly listen to yourself, it will tell you everything you need to know. Our hearts are the center of our Mind, Body, Spirit connection. This week I felt off balance and now I know why, I needed alone time to restore myself and rest in a way that allows silence to open my heart.

I find that lacking expression leads to suppression, to suppress is to help balance become undone. I will take care of myself, health is about more than just our bodies and neglecting one for the other can be harsh in the long run. I am trying harder each day to just let myself be, life is for being. I will be calm,